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BORING!!! school as usual nothing much.. somehow I just felt abit uncomfortable around.. cause of someone.. haha^^ lalalala YAWN!!

Alright, things are getting out of hand, more and more hypocrite in my class telling tales to another HOD and things are spreading fast to other teacher. Lets talk about me and yvonne, somehow me and her getting together afterall so my intention was hope she will change for the better.. somehow beegeok and desmond bet overall is beegeok lost it,actually I find it abit ridiculous and childish of this thing betting will they get together after all ? or will they seperate together when they grautaed.. Come on la, how can u placed on such bet in friendship? overall we are still friends right ? Yesterday sandy and amenda pretended to have a big fight in the classroom to let suxin think that they are really in a big tiff over trival matter and almost wanted to fight.OK lah those is childish but this matter do work ok ? So, when sanda and amenda pretended to fight me and joy took out our camera phone to video it down and this BLOODY xiangyong scolded joy that why she video it down when they are having the fight and this will make things even worse. Come on lah we're putting a show for suxin and you don't come and stir up trouble and you don't even know anything about it SO SHUT UP!!! Of cause joy was super unhappy and irrated by what xiang yong had said earlier on,and joy keep blabbering out words to scold him we wrote on the white board telling HIM not to be so busybody and scold people.. SO.. after our lesson while me joy carmen amenda and von walking out of the school gate and amenda and carmen walked first as is drizzling away so me joy and von crossed over the road to flagged a cab in fact he's scolding us but just that his direction is facing rose and kathy.. and finallly he turned and scolded joy in fact I just kept quiet and wanted to hear what he's going to say.. and me and von just scolded him with lots of rubbish....

Don't know what to blog also, sometimes always got so much things to be said but this blogger don't seems to listen to me and keep page error and made me super pissed off with it so I just gave up. Nafa test just past yesterday,I did very lousy actually espcially with my inclined pull up only did 4 times and for standbroad jump think got 160cm or 155cm i guess... and as for sit and reach, haha.. did not expect I will get 46cm and sit up 32 onli so 5 marks haha.. BUT!! my 2.4km run confirm will fail so I hope my classmate will somehow help me change with the timing so I don't need to retake all over again.its damn tiring.. haha.. This few days alot of things had happend recently that it came so unexpectedly I can't even believe that my class 5A that there are so many people who betrayed our OWN CLASSMATE! can you believed that ? come on, as a class shoulnd't we be more united then anyone else ? have been classmate for 5 years already though I just join their class this year but I don't know who's the betrayer.By doing some backstab things will you gain anything from it or simply you're just trying to gain the teacher favour? Please la , now is secondary sch already and it's not primary school. doesn't you have your own principal of your own ? does telling tales behind of someone will make you feel even better or happier ? Don't you feel just abit of guilty or what... But I hope those who betrayed me once you better watch out, when you gra better run fast if not I will give you a tight slap! Another problem that we facing it about friendship. Somehow I think that a real friend will be with you no matter you're up or down to share your happiness and sorrow with.Some are only there to share your happiness but not sorrow. Don't know what to say....

haha chinese lesson.. sleeping ZZzz

slacking haha.. waiting for mrs wee for chemistry remedial, at first was wait for 5 min if never come we go home.. lol.. but she turned up... aiya.. shld have said 30second...

Hmm.. ok la.. sometimes abit lazy to blog so.. haha let the picture talk.. physic lesson* after chinese lesson amenda was trying to use the strings to tied the table together aww joy and jiamin

Actually, don't know what to blog also.. haha.. been either sleeping or doing my art... WOW... Do art .. lol~ cause I konw I have to buck up at least 2 to 4 drawing a day,if not i will be way behind my friends... haha.. already finished up my 6 drawing.. aww......but i haven't revised my other subject.. later must burn midnight oil~

HmMm.. I think it has been a week since I write a new entry ya.. Always want to blog but I don't know whether its the blog having problem or my computer's problem.. let see this pic was taken at siewting birthday.. and i Guess i was really drunk at that time~ hahaa.. So, wish my beloved siewting happy 17th birthdat in advance ya^^ muack.... 13/04/07 haha.. yesterday was sports day.. suprisingly I went. haha.. everyone was kinda shocked becuase those school event I had never turn up since sec 2 lol... ok la.. I did participate for 8X200 event,sadly we lost haha.. I know everyone was cheering for me.. but Ended up I fell nah.. so embarassed!! haah.. intially we 2nd but I think other group people catch up.. haa... thank 5A cheering for me and even Mr tham also did.. though they were laughing -.-

Haiz yesterday was such a bad day, I quarrelled with yvonne somehow I already can't stand her anymore. And she said I just kicked up a big fuss and she said partly I'm in the wrong also.In actually fact I don't think i'm in the wrong. K lets see.Yesterday was chemistry,mrs wee the day before had already reminded up to bring calcuator during our chemistry lesson already.So, the next time early in the morning she asked us whether we had studied our chemistry test and I just said no,in fact I really didn't touch just browse throught quickly only, Ok nevermind ,but in my hearts I somehow predicted that she didn't bring calculator cause somehow I can sense that but I didn't say out only. then, first period was chemistry and mrs wee asked us if dun have calculator cannot brorrow from your friends so the KPO kia went out and yvonne said " hey, help me borrow also" but the kpo kia said " go borrow together la". then I don't know von said what dont borrow den don't borrow la." I was a little pissed off,you're having a test IS YOUR RESPOLIBILTY TO BORROW AND NOT KPO KIA . So ,I just said aiya I go helped you borrow la. So we went to 4A and 4B see .4a empty 4b the teacher is math teacher some more is quite fierce. so we went all the way to the other end which is lower sec class to borrow and we ran back to class. so von was like just standing outside 5A to wait for her calculator like that la. then after that I was like abit sweat but nevermind since she's my friend I'm fine with it. so i started doing my paper and she kept asking me question like fomluar and the 1st time mrs wee caught us talking so first warning.. I knew somehow her eye didn't take off my paper so I PURPOSELY placed my pencil box beside my paper and my hands just cover with it but somehow she still can see my answer and she just can't keep fidgeting aroud moving her table sitting up straight. ain't that obvious ? so, mrs wee caught us again talking and she chided me instead of yvonne ,firsytly mrs wee already misunderstood me that is I AM THE ONE WHO DIDN'T BRING CALCUTOR AND SAID I'M IRRESPONSIBLE . that one nevermind. So, I got scolded by her, I was very unhappy and pissed off and went mrs wee walked away she just said '"A , SORRRY AR. and THATS ALL . I meant don't you think is not very nice and insincere the way she apologised ? Then I was super pissed off when come's to english lesson we went to hotbot room and I sat with her that the most unhappier thing about it cause i wanted to sit with joy and carmen they all but no place cause of suxin sitting there so I sit with von but joy reaction was too slow.. So i just kept quiet with my moody and sulky face sitting beside her. She was like '' YOU WANT SIT GO SIT WITH THEM LAR.." FIRST TIME : I ignored her and trying to calm down and control my tempered.2nd time she said the same thing again,I was really fed up I scolded and shouted at her infront of mr tham and I just dashed out of the hotbot room, I wanted joy to chase me out but instead von chased out I locked myself in the cubicile and i started to sob.. haish... then she kept saying things which I don't want to hear so. I just said go back to class first, and she said I go outside wait for you.. than when i go out she like trying to pull me back but I don't care and I just went back to classroom and went I stepped inside everyone was like so silent even mr tham also. then she told carmen that I am partyly in the wrong also. I was thinking from the time I took calulator for you and chided by mrs wee so I am in the wrong ? please la I already can do what a friend can do already whats more you want ? and she told me we already grown up. I mean what does grown up a matter with I angry cause i'm childish ? hello, is not a matter of whether I'm childish or not grown up is just that you didn't helped yourself. I don't want to tell you what you have done wrong I want you to WAKE UP and know where your mistakes are, but you didn't realised and earlier on I told you before.. that means you didn't take my advice, you took it for granted. Yaya.. today went out with my 2 beloved sweetie joy and Carmen ,out to town. Quite fun shop a lot I simply adore shopping therapy it helps a lot to release all my stress so here are some photo take we took…

Actually,I have been crying into sleep for the past few nights,ever since peifen had told my about him.Every of my friends told me that its really not worth it crying over for someone whos heart it's no longer there but with other girl. But I just can't hold back my tears,I always act brave front infront my of best friends I don't want them to worry for me and tell me it's really not worth it wasting so much of your tears for him. Sometimes I really want to be strong and not to cry anymore I always promised myself that would be the last time I would teared for him and not a single drop will be ever seen but I always failed to do so. Haiz... My memories jusr keep flashing through my mind vividly and memories is always memories that I could not have them back. haha... lets not talk about this, today lesson was quite fast,Art period was even faster just draw and draw and paste and recess. I love wed because there's fried chicken wing and everyone would run down and queue up or cut queue haha.. is like fighting a war.. but we still managed to buy our chicken wing yaya * secret* So.. after that was english lesson ,went to hotbot room that mr tham ''esp'' booked for us I supposed saying that the weather is espcially hot and humid ya.. haha... so we bought seaweed to english lesson ,that was what me and von had done yaya snatching ?

haaha.. just a random picture ya.. ^^ lol... update later^^

Haiz, yesterday I was really upset that my ex perhaps has really gotten over me so fast that she had already found himself a real girlfriend after I had break with him for about 1 week plus.I meant isn't it too fast ? and unbelieveable when peifen told me with her own mouth.I was really taken aback while my heart was really really pain that I would really cry anytime. Though we had been together for 2 years 3 month but in this relationship I had really learned alot from him knowing what I want and how to think for it.There are sweet and painful memories that both of us had hold but somehow it's just ended silently and peacefully without much tears,perhaps he had really cried for me? Which I don't know,but 1 thing for sure that I'M REALLY SAD,becuase I am the one chose to let go and not continued in this relationship I am the one who gave up this long journey.Perhaps letting go would be happier for both of us ,and now you had already found a better girls that would take care of you when you always needed her there to share your happiness and sorrow.I'm sorry that when you always needed me and I'm always not there for you giving you lots of excuse that even 10 fingers could be counted.When I'm sad or in troubled you will always be there for me or when I'm sick you will always find medincine for me.I'm really touched for all you had done for me. And always whenever I wanted to go out with friends or what you didn't want me to go you believe that this time should be spend on you.but for me I would really think that friend is more important and boyfriends. Actually ,I do really missed that time we spend,going out together when we have no money we would stay at home and wait for your parents to come back,but there will not be next time.. I know that you're demanding,but you do not want to lose me,so you thought that by controlling me I would stay.With all so much of this memories,even now when I see those Winnie the pooh you have given me my tears would really drop and don’t know how to control it thinking back those wonderful and happy memories we once shared together and the name stand we have made for ourself all this memories is still in my mind very clearly and the number that I used to pressed to call you it was so clear that I could hardly forget.Going to the place that we once went taking neoprint and sit there for 1 hour till the shops closed and lots of funny things we had once met.And rememeber we do had make our promised that we would shop finish the whole Singapore and do the things that we like.Althought we always quarrel but I know it’s all for my own good but I don’t realize that and take it for granted.Also,whenever I always want to break you’re the 1 that held me back.Somehow I think it was a mistake maybe we should not even started but we still went on if it not been you our relationship would not had lasted so long.I love the feeling of strolling at esplanate chit chatting ,talking,gossip sitting there so happily that all this moments will only remained in my heart.You always say those things that somehow really hurts me but I know that not your true intention but somehow I don’t know what you’re thinking also so this already lead to a lot of argument between us but we chose to be together somehow. You forbid me to go my friends birthday party you don’t like me to hang around with them you always think that my friend will teach me the wrong things for so long you never really let me attend my friend birthday party or going out with them so all this me and my friend had difted apart whenever there’s party or what they would asked me but they predicted that I wouldn’t be going but they still asked,and I always been a spoilspot for them .Somehow whenever you have gathering or what I wouldn’t say no because I don’t want you to be like me,maybe I’m the one suffer is enough. I know you have been sacrifices a lot and giving me things that I really want.But now it’s never the same anymore.though I would missed you. I know I really owned you a THANK YOU and SORRY for being so spoilt and your tolerance I know this 2 words I will never had a chance to say to you anymore...So, I only can wished you all the best with your girlfriends and take care.. Though now i living in an agony now,but I think I will get over it soon... ya^^ haha.. let's not say about this.Today lesson was really fast and 1pm we dismissed and also joy they all had O level prelim chinese oral and so the science remedial was CANCELLED! we were super elated if not after the oral still have to go for remedial 1 by 1.I was so lucky that I do not had to retake my chinese so I just stand there and wait for them to finish.. haha.. meanwhile we went to the library and took some photograph with jiamin haha.. oh ya I forget one things ,you know today I was quite pissed off with her,all she knows was to sleep and sleep in the class and she rather studies those theory instead of listening to teachers. Now , if she asked me anything about homework or what I would pretend and act blur and say I don't know...

Yay.. just now go meet my peifen aiai... miss her so so much^^ hehe.. catch up soon ya^^