I don't know what is happening around me... Everything is just not the same I expected and happened. Just know that my friend is drifting apart in fact already in a different world. Seems like I have been isoslated and left behind I don't know what is happening already. I always there when you needed me helping you all way out to solve your problems. Somehow we build up our friendship just when we repeated and now because of those some little incident everything is not the same anymore. I always think of my friends first in my first piority but what did I get? Those being left out? I'm in your group but thats as good as dead and transparent to you all.I know somehow I'm at fault too but I just want you to help all the way is it difficult ? It is within your limits, I always helped you all the way out but what do I get in returned? I always ask you out but somehow it's always full of excuses I know you have your own life and world with a loving boyfriend that dotes and loves you with his heart. I know maybe the problem is already there just somehow that we didn't even realise. We don't sms don't meet often, often I am the one who sms or asked you out have you realise that ? Did you ask me out ? of these 2 years ? I know you gt curfew you gt time limit to go home I always give in and give way but now I got is all these things.. Just now in english room I was trying to keep quiet but no one did not even bothered about me or asking me "hey are you ok and recovering from your illness?" instead no one ask about me the one who ask is yvonne. I know somehow you all are still predjucied about her , maybe is your point of view the way you all judge her, but when we are get builled who is the first to stand up and shout and scream at the person infront of whole school canteen? In other words, maybe we have too much of similarites and same mindset perhaps we can be close I know we did had a arguement but now we are closer than before.. I really don't know what to do now! somehow perhaps it's KARMA~ hai.... Today it's really an hectic day for me everything hadn't been going on smoothly for this whole year. Oral exam I thought I did pretty well but turn out to be when Mr tham said that there are failure among 5A and our scores it's just national average so heart abit sank but I hope I fall into the national average group ba... After english went for art lesson, art is getting lesser and lesser people each day, everyone is running at a fast speed to complete their art as much as possible I don't want to be the one that left behind... haiz... But somehow is hard for me to control..I know a friend in need is a friend indeed now finally I realise how meaninful is this word.... haiz...

I'm still struggling with my this piece of art.. hai~~