Today is the day I gotten back my result I couldn't express how I felt when I gotten back my result. I was quite taken aback that I gotten a F9 for my english and other main subject didn't do well either. At first I was holding back my tears but somehow when I called my love upon when I have received my result and I just burst into tears. I was totally lost at first because I felt thats the end of my world. I don't know where I supposed to be heading to whether to work or study and work at the same time. I don't want to go ITE because the choice was rather all enginerring and stuff like that which I really got no interest at all. Anyway.. Thank for those people that wishes me good luck. My love,Samantha,Jasmine,gurlaine,cherie,Siewting,Lenghan,William,Guoliang,Peifen, Terese,Mingjie, Yonghui,Weiquan,WenFeng and Miss fun .Thank for wishing me that Some of them which so long I didn't contact I was quite surprised. But anyway, I have come to a decision that I would choose MDIS to further study for my diploma I got no wish to back to repeat or even touch the book anymore and furthermore I have repeated once in secondary I don't want to be mocked by them.Although Miss fun did encourage me to repeat because the teacher are very good in sec 5 classes but Somehow I really got no motivation and interest to go back. I really own her a very big thank you to miss fun because she stand by me and helped me alot. The next things is Thank my love for accompany and tutor me to study during my O level period. You tutor me until 5am in the morning and I went straight for my exam but still I disappoint you.You spend an effort to teach me and you didn't lose our temper when I don't understand the question you use your patience to make me understand the Question.But still I make you disappointed. Thank you for being there for me. I own you a Thank and a Sorry... I know I am too dependant on you and my parents. I wish to be independent like Siewting and yvonne too but somehow is within my limits I want to try perhaps I can only slowly adapt to independent life and not rely on you and my parents anymore and because next coming year I am 20 years old. I know my parents are fill with disappoinment and sad because they know I didn't make it . They are worried and afraid that I got nowhere to go,but I did tell them where I wanted to go. I am such a failure, disappoint them again and again. Sorry Dad and Mum. I love youuu!You are the best parents in the world! I know alot of people dotes on me especially my parents, my love and my girlfriends they care and concern about me I am glad I have them by my side. Love you, my loveeeee