What can I do to make you smile ? Things are not going my way, I created such a mess in my life. I thought things are going smoothly, no matter whether is it friendships or my love or even families. I always blamed my mother for not doing my way, always scold her for not doing housework or prepared dinner. But afterall, no matter how much I scolded here or yelled at her she's will still be nice. Buy my dinner and everything larh. Perhaps she's tired after her work. Sometimes I always thought that our friendships was strong, but somehow we can brave through a little bit of obstacle and even if is a small one. I know you're straight forward and said things out that hurt other person unknowingly. I know it's my fault, I should not been more calucative and particular about little things. I should have been more understand, I know all of them have their own commitement and was busy with their own things.. But so am I ? I don't know how you feel when you said all these even until now. I don't know whether you're upset by what you have said earlier on. But of cause I'm upset. I always wanted to compensate the time we lost. Boyfriend. I really don't know what to say for the love you showered me for the past 1 years. You said that I don't understand you enough, perhaps . Perhaps things you done and imply to me I may not understand. You should know I'm not those that really expressed myself well enough. But one thing. I love you ! I always tried to make you smile, but perhaps in a wrong way.