Caught Flash point on friday at jurong point with yvonne. Nice movie cause got louis koo OMG He'S SO CHARMING AND HANDSOME! Went for art first but I always don't have the determination to stay until 5 somehow I manage to stay until 4 plus and my suddenly I just can't concentrate to carry on with my painting anymore cause I think I got a really bad headache so I stopped at 4 plus with yvonne and cab home. Wandering around at jurong point deciding what to eat for dinner but somehow jurong point floods with people so we decided to eat sakae sushi don't why recently we have been craving for jap food. So after dinner walk about slack awhile and go for movie ! hehe 3.5 of 5 stars! nice! Oral is drawing nearer each day. hais... you know it's real sad when you got betrayed by your best friend i'm darn disappointed in her I don't know who to rely and trust anymore it's so tiring when she is always there for you yet she betrayed abd stab you right on your heart without you even knowing how you got stabbed things is getting more and more complicated I hate this kind of internal conflicts why can't they just keep their promised and secrets ? It's really tiring and i'm really sick of it. But somehow I just act blur and acted as if nothing happened anwyay life still have to carry on. I miss my besties soooo much I can't wait for the next meeting we seems so near yet so far. Last but not least I still got joy and yvonne and amenda although we know each other this years but I can sense that she really helped me alot in my homework I know I have said something that really hurt alot deeply but thats was before already cause at that time I don't really know her very well but somehow as times goes by she treats me as her best friend yet I did something that really hurt her alot what a lousy friend I am. She is always there for me giving me help and teach me in detailed til I understand I rememeber the incident is when I broke the glass window she is the first one to help me picking all this window fragement depsite that I think she hurt herself she helps me all the way and at that point of time I totally changed view about her yet I told my friend that we are always friend in school yet we got out of the school maybe we even lost contact. I really regret by talking all this I really wish that times could have turn back and never said that word and open my eye wide and big to know who is true to me but somehow I failed to see all this. I know she will read my blog she is a true friend indeed but somehow I think I have lost her who is always there for me when I needed them but seems that I'm more close with yvonne for this few months ba maybe cuase of our quarrel we become even much much closer than before I'm bliss to have them as my friends. Somehow, I'm seems motivated in my studies I have been wasting alot of time for the past few months it is time for me to wake up and pull up my socks and mug hard I really don't know why have this kind of feelings maybe I have think really alot that I can't stay on like this forever. Brother give me remedial somehow I know he is kind of frustated and pissed off that he explained upteem times bu I failed to understand.He chided me that I should know all this when I was in sec 2 and 3 should have brushed up my foundation since that time. I know I have been playing through my sec2 and 3 lost concentration and all focus on my volleyball alot I'm totally addicted to volleyball that time. Come to think of it I kind of regret why I did not manage my volleybal; and studies well now I'm at sec 5 already yet I don't have the foundation. Maybe cuase of his word that really knocked out some sense. This few days I have thinking alot and lots of thoughts just strike across my mind even though when i'm in class I really don't know why. Somehow I realise when you like someone he don't really treasure you well but when you waiting for something or someone who likes you they tend to cherish you more. haiz.. I don't know what to do now i'm tired of all these rubbish. Right now I better concentrate on my studies ba.